Bleeding Tears, Lonely Nights

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Feeling weird...

Your Not Alone
By Saosin

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..

He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..

You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.

New Years... maybe this year could go differently... well... Heres one big change anyway... my first positive entry... And its all just because of a song... Hmmn... Even though it may be just this once... I'm feeling alot different now... 2006 was one big screw up after the other... Its weird... but I actually feel like its possible 2007 wont be... Even if this is illusory... I've gotta admit it feels much better... Well... I guess I've gotta set some NYRs...

1)Swear much less... I realise I've gotten into alot more swearing the past whole year...
2)Temper management/fuse extension... everytime my fuse went out... someone was injured pretty badly... lucky it only happens once or twice or never a year... as opposed to once a week...
3)Gotta try my best to make her happy too... prayers and wishes just don't seem to help much... she still doesn't feel very happy...
4)Stop being a damn bastard... I am you know?... don't disillusion me into thinking I'm not...
5)Stay insignificant... although I know I'm not alone... there are so many things I need to do ALONE... so erm... insignificance is my gift... *My ability to slip away... from anything without being noticed untill alot later*
6)Stop being a freaking actor... Well... its stupid in my opinion... I hate those fools living there in Hollywood because of all the things they do... on the scene as well as behind it... and yet I act like them sometimes and just act(those who know me well enough you definately know what I mean)...

well hmmn... these 6 and alot more I guess... inclusive of exercising more... right now the only exercise I ever do is changing tyres and running up stairs... so honestly... that coupled with my extreme love for so much food and gargantuan appetite... hmmn... See... thats not a good thing at all... But one thing won't ever change... This is a generalisation... But I really wish my mentality will never grow older than it is now... I really just can't stand the way adults talk about things and do things... Speech becomes extremely insensitive.. Patience is almost always tested... And no matter what... you always have to act which I sort of really despise even though I do it all the time...

The acting... gets so irritating because a lot of adults actually have no idea what they are talking about... And its actually extremely obvious that they are faking it... but most are just oblivious to it(speaking mostly of the adults that I hang around alot of the time... the old senile ones... not the younger gen...)... In the words of my ahma... which I still find extremely insulting... "WHAT??? Chemical engineering how to make money!?... must go into business become accountant..."... thats after my sister told her I was from *Mechanical Engineering*... my jaw dropped... but I just recently learned my temper is really bad... so I just kept quiet... oh well...

What a beginning... A friend gets drunk... My Ahma annoys me... My brothers still missing... and yet I'm trying to be positive cause' of all my friends and a song...

Hmmn.. now then... would you say this is a positive enough entry??...

2:12 a.m. - 2007-01-02

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